The Lenten Prayer

O Lord and Ruler of Life, take from me the spirit of idleness, despair, cupidity, and empty talking. Yea, O Lord grant that I may see my own sins and not judge my brother. For thou art blessed forever and ever. Amen.

      

This ancient Lenten prayer has been posted around my house this year. I’ve found it to be a good one over the long haul. At first, I read it and thought it a nice prayer, easy to memorize and entirely usable for Lent. Then, it began to seep into me.

Take from me the spirit of idleness, despair, cupidity, and empty talking. Idleness?  Dear Lord, I have eight children who still live at home and are all still homeschooled (except for the infant who is attached to me twenty-four hours a day). How in the world can I be idle? Ah, but I can and I am. When I sit at the computer and mindlessly click away while I nurse the baby, I am idling my brain and, more importantly, my spirit.  After a few weeks of praying this prayer, I have found myself whitttling my Bloglines down to only what I could manage in a fifteen minute sitting first thing in the morning. I promised myself I would not go back and check during the day. I lived without blogs entirely just a short year ago. I’m sure this own’t kill me.

I’m spending that nursing time with one of the spiritual books I chose just for Lent (linked on the sidebar) or in the quiet of my room, rocking with a rosary, or next to a couple of children on the couch, reading them a good book. Yes, please, take from me the idleness. Take it and don’t let it creep back in.

What about despair? Honestly, I don’t often feel very despairing. But I’ve noticed it in my household. The spirit is here.  This prayer is for my children—particularly my teenagers—who are all too often held captive by feelings of despair.

Cupidity is a desire, usually for things.  For me, the Lenten discipline is to take good care of the things I have, to be very careful with home maintenance. I don’t desire things but I also don’t outwardly appreciate what I have the way I should.  This is a great big house, with lots of people in it and lots of people have lots of “stuff.” There is no excuse for it to be poorly tended. I have been given much and much is expected. I do not desire more; I desire to do more with what I have. I had a very honest talk with a dear friend yesterday. We went step by step through the realities of my day to try to find time to ensure that my home is good witness for this lifestyle. I will not desire more, but I will desire to do well with the abundance I have.

And empty talking. This really is why I was drawn to this particular prayer. There was a time when women at home were drawn to chatting away over the backyard fence or meeting each other for coffee in a restaurant or wiling away the hours attached to a telephone with an extra long cord. These are not my temptations. I have no fence, I no longer drink coffee and I’m not all that fond of the phone. No, my temptation is captured in a screen. Lord, save me from email and message boards. Save me from hours and hours of philosophical and theological conversations that actually draw me away from You and lead me outside your will.

I cannot live my vocation if my time is taken with idleness and empty talking. Even talking about motherhood, homemaking, and God himself can be empty talking if I talk (or write) about it and I neglect to do it. Time on earth is finite. The days of childhood are numbered.  Distracted mothers are a curse to their children.

There is a place for online support and fellowship. It serves a purpose and can be a blessing. I love friends I have made online and I count them among my blessings and my joys. Online conversations and blogs can inspire us to lives of holiness. They often do just that; they show us how to be better wives, better mothers, better teachers, better Christians.

But I also think that the devil drives the information superhighway. He claps with glee when moms log on. Lent is a time of discipline. Ascetism is about growing in self-discipline. This prayer helps me to see how I must order my time and my attention. Quiet stillness is a good thing. Idleness is not. Concern is a good thing. Despair is not. A home to grow in is a good thing. Chaos in that home is not. Encouragement and support in my vocation is a good thing. Empty talking is not.

Layer by layer, we peel away the things that stand between ourselves and godliness. We make more time for and pay more attention to the good things. And we leave behind those things that are not.

Comments

  1. says

    This was a beautifully written post. And I certainly agree about attaining some sort of balance online. But meeting you and the rest of the Catholic bloggers has brought me much closer to the Church – at a time when I felt that wasn’t something I wanted. I’ve always been and always will be a devout Catholic, but my prayer life has only deepened since becoming a part of this community. I’m not trying to be disagreeable, but I always felt as if God guided me through the acres of trash on the internet to spiritually worthy sites, such as your own. And through your site this morning, God is telling me to go ahead and get off! :)

  2. Ebeth says

    Jennifer,
    Remember, I didn’t say that blogs and message boards were bad. On the contrary, I said they can show us how to be better people (and I have a whopper typo in there I just noticed). The trick I think is not to let the computer suck me in and hold me there so that I’m not present to the people here in my life.

  3. says

    That was beautiful and thought provoking. I wrote my own post in response and posted a link to my blog. Thank you for writing it…

  4. says

    Thanks for the reminder to pare down and back away from those things that are distractions from our most important responsibilities. Now, I am off to clean my kitchen and read aloud to the kids. :)

  5. Marilyn says

    Thank you for reminding me of my Lenten resolutions, and helping me get back on track.

  6. says

    have you been reading my journal?? so similar to what i have been pondering. I have been actually reading that same prayer during my quiet time each day. thank you for being a kindred spirit across the miles.

  7. says

    Thank you, this reinforces some things I’ve been thinking as well. I too have been paring down my bloglines list and really trying to make sure I am engaged with my family when they are awake. And when they are not awake, I am trying to make sure I have things set up such that we can make the best use of our day together. I know I have gained a lot from my time online and the blogs I’ve found, but I have also wasted a lot of time on the petty whirlwinds that pass through constantly. This Lent I’ve been trying to work on finding the balanace between companionship and inspiration and wasting time… and while it is a struggle, I have already seen the fruits of this effort!