I see the prompt at Lisa-Jo's and instantly I hear the song in my head, the way Alan used to sing it, years ago, in the gym turned church. Shepherd me O, God, beyond my wants, beyond my fears, from death into life.
It is 5 AM. I've been awake since 3:45, my mind awhirl. Shepherd me O, God.
Hello, Fear, old companion nearly forgotten; you're back. You're creeping into those half awake moments and forcing me from sleep. Go! Get out of my head! My imagination is no longer your playground. He shepherds me beyond my fears. So, go!
I see Him now, slingshot in hand, whirling it masterfully in the air, sending fear scurrying into the beyond.
Gently you raise me and heal my weary soul,
you lead me by pathways of righteousness and truth,
my spirit shall sing the music of your Name.
Beyond these walls, beyond these beds, beyond these children finally sleeping. In the dark, and the sudden chill, I've called the Shepherd to draw close. Please lead me. I'm following You to a place beyond my wants, beyond my fears, from death into life.
I will dwell in the house of my God forevermore.