Don't forget that the only pedestal you need ever stand on is the one your husband and children build for you.
Persevere. "He who does not give up prayer cannot possibly continue to offend God habitually. Either he will give up prayer, or he will give up sinning" (St. Alphonsus LIguori).
Focus on your home today. The world can find another volunteer, but your husband and children have only one you.